Seeking my bear
I found cobalt dragonflies
Lounging on blades of grass;
Water gleaming, cradling boulders;
Knotted roots anchoring pines.
Two osprey circled the mountain air.
They crisscrossed,
And I felt you
Standing next to me
As if we would hold a secret
Of a dive into the alpine lake,
Returning to the sky with a fish.
Then, we would catch a kiss and a bear hug
Beside the shore.
You are beyond words
Beyond definition
Known by a thousand names
You are
The unnamable one
How am I charmed
To feel our connection
Speak to you through my center
My guides
Your responses evade
My comprehension
I do not always hear
Or accept
Your soft, still voice
But please,
Speak to me
In a way I can understand
Sprinkle my dreams with your visions
Help me move beyond words
Beliefs
Keeping me in cycles
Separate from your touch
What will I do
With these affirmations of endearment
I wrote for you
If you won’t accept them?
Maybe I’ll stitch them up
Like a handmade quilt
Or use them
As a double umbrella
With room for another
Heart to hold
Covered in thick metallic plates
A shield against feeling
Anything —
Not even the persistent howl
For agency
For desires you decided had to die —
Knowing that cry within myself
I sensed it
Or maybe I saw it in an amulet
When I brought you to natural, warm waters
Sheltered between lilacs and willows
We submerged our bodies in the crystal reverie
And I called that voice forward
Breathing life into dormant dreams
Now,
Will you put down your arms
And listen to him sing?
Sunken and starving, you arrived
Giving more than you are
I brought you to my altar
And lit candles
As you folded
Into
Yourself
Waking to nourish
On the fruits of my land
Gathered for your blessing
For your color restoring
I whispered my devotion
You are the eternal light that sustains me
In the darkest void from which I am born
Supporting my faith in steadiness
Cradled in your glowing palm
A pulse that sooths and smooths
The edges of my skin lose meaning
As I’m nurtured in your care
Your murmur at dawn
Is pastel poetry inked
Against cumulus clouds
Cast on an ancient lake
Awakening me with
Redwoods, clovers, and ferns
Night’s cosmos disappearing
Into the charm and radiance of your eyes
In divination she sees
My death cycle
Moss on a mountain
Thick and green to
Brittle and lonely
All parts of me together
We climb, we leave
Only knowing, feeling
A shining channel of
The pure, chosen path
Wild goddess, dusk deity
Give me fertile power
To climb the earth altar
Feel every growing charm
And celebrate my soul’s arrival
With a dark moon fire
My ancestors and guides encircled together
In harmony through our
Cherished song
Ancient rocks
Burn a sacred fusion
Anoint our intuition
With noble breath in dance
Offer us a blossom
For our feast of sweet connection
A tendril nest
Of confluence sublime
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