Tranquil summer rosebud beneath
Our secret morning
Emerge, yellow sanctuary,
Make life soft like peace
Tranquil summer rosebud beneath
Our secret morning
Emerge, yellow sanctuary,
Make life soft like peace
Outside the temple I built
For us
You wanted my embrace
And I wanted you
So we stood beneath
A cosmic canopy
Facing a place between
Chaos and conversation
We brought our hearts
On pink fluffy clouds
To hold and to breathe
A glowing orb between us
In those moments that lasted
You sighed
With a hum that blossomed
In rainbow resonance
Growing hope in the garden
Of safety
Signaling my body to relax
In the glimmer and shimmer
Of our auras entwined
As if we’d met there
Lifetimes before
Interrupting the melancholy of absence
I dreamed we were sitting
In the backseat of a Mayan taxi
Cobblestone drifting below
Red, orange, and pink patterns
Fluttering strands
Between us and the sun
I couldn’t help myself
Blissed by presence
I stroked your foot with mine
Cuddled my face into your neck
You said, “I am a pool of water”
And I knew exactly what you meant
I
She pulled into their gravel driveway to find
The table they picked out from the vintage shop down the hill
Matching chairs he gave her as a birthday gift
Baskets he brought home to cheer her up one day
The blue bench they put beneath their bedroom window
Her desk, their couches, bookshelves, her artwork, and end tables she painted
Piled into a haphazard pyramid
She stepped out of her car in confusion, leaving the door open
Not knowing his secrets
She made a procession around their belongings
II
He came out of their house carrying bags of her books
She collected since childhood
His face, strange and distorted around his lips and eyes
Contempt and arrogance wrinkled his brow
What are you doing, was all she could muster
This is your fault, was all he replied
As he dumped her books into the mess
She pulled at his arm and begged him to stop
He pushed her away
Tears poured down her cheeks as she plucked books from the jumble
And tried to salvage
Their home their comfort their love
Their connectedness to each other and this place
Relics of their little family, their shared life and time
But he yanked her away
And threw her to the ground
III
She crumpled and watched in hopeless horror
In anguish and sorrow
As he poured gas from the cans they bought for off-grid adventures
His heart aching, his wounds projecting
Just tell me you understand, he spat
But no, after so much work, she had arrived
Wasn’t that miracle — enough?
He lit the cloth torch soaked in gas
And tossed it
Spiraling destruction scorching their world
IV
Watching her life combust before her, she dropped into the void
And was no longer afraid
Mistaking the bonfire for the flames within her heart
She stood, feeling no other place that she belonged
With her back to the fire, she faced him and reached for him
Not knowing his deceits
She squeezed his hand and stared into his eyes
Reflecting chaos and pain
Inhaling deeply, she let go, took several steps backwards and leapt into the inferno
Her body convulsed into shock
As she lay dying, devoured by the pyre
She believed, or imagined, it was his warm arms that enfolded her
His ego smiled, watching her engulfed, finally satisfied to know
The extent of her love
V
When only embers, hardware, and her jewelry remained
He stepped to the wreckage of their life
In that moment
From the ashes of his darkness
A bird of light burst forth like a call from the heavens
Her wings fanned open, gleaming gold
Her long, luminous tail feathers unfurled
She floated like a star above the ruin
In the bright radiance of her beauty and truth
Grains of sand, pieces of his reality he couldn’t contain
Spilled from behind his mask
The sight and sound startled her like a door slamming shut
Pressing against the air, her wide wings
Effortlessly took her over the trees
On an incandescent flight
At the end of fall, I sit burned and jagged, hot and dry
Remnants of my life scattered upon me
Monuments of destruction
And you find me like this when you arrive as clouds that cover
Shielding my skin from the sun’s burning rays
Until you are mist, preparing me
To accept you as rain
Mixing with my ashes, creating fertile compost
Forming puddles under rocks and cleansing my pain
Softening the shells of my long-dormant seeds
You return as snow
Blanketing me with your cool, soothing balm
Held and holding, gently protecting my wounds
Layer by layer, inch by inch
And in perfect timing, you melt away
Caressing me, pouring into my veins
Saturating my sediment and filling my aquifers
The seeds that sprout in our entwined elements
Grow upon me, out of my ashes, in the warmth of your love
Your words are a tuning fork
Sounding the vibration
That harmonizes my heart
Longing for you is a subtle chord
Played in the background of my heart
Delicate and gentle notes
Expanding as I breathe
Softly filling my aura with a love song
Pour your rain upon me
Until my rivers swell
And creeks appear on every path
Race through my forests
With your gusts and gale forces
Fell the dead towers
That no longer serve me
And stand in the way of our
Evolving Dance
Crash them onto my soft, supple body
And I will transform them into new life
While we sing of our union
Our balance and harmony
That’s greater and more powerful than time
You are a rainstorm
After a blistering heatwave
The drops that tell me
I am not forgotten.
You are the medicine
That washes my leaves
Of summer’s dust
And fills my cells with life.
My roots relax in your
Rainbow Promise
Of our earth’s certain turning
And a blessed season’s change.
i’ve hidden away in cavernous shadows
for so long
that as i coax myself into
myself
and we breathe together
between homecoming tears and the
golden arms of ascension
it feels
like
i’m the first fish to crawl above
water, taking
a great gasp of pure
evolution