I will take you beyond the veil —
Where purple lupin lead the sacrament
And aspen leaves flicker in praise —
To speak with the clouds
Of the healing, skyward coil and
Silver stallion’s gleaming eyes
That are the portals which prove
You are ready
Ants, unlimited and active,
Are shooting stars
On a moonless night
Darting swiftly across the vast expanse
Without end or rest.
Eagles, attacked by blue jays,
Shake them by ascending
Thermal, hypoxic air
Between this spinning rock
And infinite dark.
I am the ant,
Digging and hauling
Building and seeking
Unaware of my cosmic counterpart.
I am the eagle,
At lower altitudes
Plagued by pecking and scratching
Transmitted through my psyche.
To know my stardust
And to meet it there —
Delivers me from these daggers
I grasp in fearful hands.
With our last kiss goodbye
I saw myself reflected in his eyes as
We promised to meet in our dreams.
Now,
He sings to me
While removing a mask
That purges toxic beliefs
And stale contracts
He dances with me
Overjoyed in his body and
Unafraid to bare his heart with
His generous smile close to mine
We rest together
I pull from my suitcase an incandescent sphere
Swirling with Venusian clouds, expanding
While I nestle in his protective arms
We talk on the phone
I say, “come to me, I’m on a floating, lush mountain surrounded by stars”
I think he will have to book a flight, but
He hurls a rope and begins to climb
Assisted by an angel who agrees
Our last kiss would not be goodbye.
His true Self
Is a prism in a cloudless sky
Its shadow — a rainbow gliding
Across glossy green leaves and crystalline dreams
Featherlight kisses alight on my cheeks
With a shimmering dust
Like butterfly wings
You blamed yourself
Your sweet, soft
Essence
For your suffering
Rather than those who mishandled you
So you banished it
Deep within defensive shadows
Locked behind a fear-proof door
Unknowingly
Caging currents of your
Lifeforce
Settling you into sticky
Half-truths and
Deluded satisficing but
I knew you before the disunion
So when you pulled me close
I recognized your radiance
Reaching to me through the cracks
Longing to be released
And held
In my sweet, soft
Safety
You belong to untamed rivers,
Rippling from mountains
Out to the sea.
I belong to the one who flows with them,
Free yet connected,
His heart beats with me.
Seeking my bear
I found cobalt dragonflies
Lounging on blades of grass;
Water gleaming, cradling boulders;
Knotted roots anchoring pines.
Two osprey circled the mountain air.
They crisscrossed,
And I felt you
Standing next to me
As if we would hold a secret
Of a dive into the alpine lake,
Returning to the sky with a fish.
Then, we would catch a kiss and a bear hug
Beside the shore.
You are beyond words
Beyond definition
Known by a thousand names
You are
The unnamable one
How am I charmed
To feel our connection
Speak to you through my center
My guides
Your responses evade
My comprehension
I do not always hear
Or accept
Your soft, still voice
But please,
Speak to me
In a way I can understand
Sprinkle my dreams with your visions
Help me move beyond words
Beliefs
Keeping me in cycles
Separate from your touch
What will I do
With these affirmations of endearment
I wrote for you
If you won’t accept them?
Maybe I’ll stitch them up
Like a handmade quilt
Or use them
As a double umbrella
With room for another
Heart to hold
Covered in thick metallic plates
A shield against feeling
Anything —
Not even the persistent howl
For agency
For desires you decided had to die —
Knowing that cry within myself
I sensed it
Or maybe I saw it in an amulet
When I brought you to natural, warm waters
Sheltered between lilacs and willows
We submerged our bodies in the crystal reverie
And I called that voice forward
Breathing life into dormant dreams
Now,
Will you put down your arms
And listen to him sing?
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